It Had Been A While

It'd been a while and lot of things had happened,, there are good and bad,, happy  and sad.. sort of things made me myself who I am right now.. sometime,, I confused.. I'm just lost a best friend by my side.. even though there are still some of my mates around.. yet I just felt emptiness..deep in my heart... it is not that he is no longer alive but since he'd been gone.. I felt; the 'string' that I always used to hold against all the obstacles that I faced,, is no longer in my palm... 


I kept sighing all days but still.. nothing changed,, even I myself confused with these conditions for now.. maybe a part of envy and jealousy in me made all of things turn out into chaos.. or just maybe I'm just felt ignored,, please!! don't put me into this,, I just can't take it anymore!!!


but... part of my heart still missing him,, I still remember our times together; he taught me how and what to do with computers,, how to differentiate between low voice and high voice, even how to order a simple snack plate from KFC,, we sang together, we ate together, watching Mr. Brain together... 


now I only could wish that our times together could be the best moment for him too.. He is the one who helped me a lot so that I could survive in this strange world,, he is the one who gave me guidance so that I could be in the right way,, he is the one and only I could share my problem with,,,he is my best friend ever; MUHAMMAD SYAHMI BIN OSMAN..